2010

I was just chatting to my friend George about all the rubbish that happened for both of us in 2009, and how 2010 is going to be so much better. I may be unemployed and living with my mum, but at least I have potential, and no strings.
When I look back on 2009, I see the destruction of two friendships ( though over the last 2 days both have begun to heal), Chronic Anxiety Syndrome, hours of couselling, days and nights of uni work which sometimes amounted to nothing, and a job where I was made to feel like a bully for wanting people to achieve their best. But I also see the first home I ever truly built for myself, with a little help from Rachel :), all the amusement and sadness that comes from actually, truly keeping your own pets for the first time (as apposed to that hamster you had that your mum cleaned out) and the joy of achieving everything that I'd worked so hard for. I also learnt to grow pot plants, dye my own hair and make reasonably good cappucinos. Not bad all in all.
My life has always been made or broken by the people around me, so I'd like to aknowledge, in particular, Rachel, Jack and my parents for being frankly amazing this year, you've supported me emotionally and financially (and occasionally physically) and I couldn't have got through the year (let alone got a 1st) without you. I also wouldn't have survived without the Canvas house, who frankly saved my faith, in Christians as people, if not in God.

So on to 2010. I'm waiting to hear back on an Education Officer's post at Bristol Zoo. If I get this job, my whole life may just be able to fall into place, by which I mean I will be able to live in the same city as Jack and do a job which uses my interests, and my brain, at the same time, while still being fairly near my friends and family.
And if I don't get this job....then I don't know. I've been looking at PhD projects, but given that I didn't get a single interview last year I'm a little reluctant to apply, considering also that none of them are anywhere near Bristol, where Jack is settled in a good job with awesome colleagues. I think this year might hold some difficult choices, but in a weird way I'm excited about having the freedom to make them.